It’s about 7 YEARS since I last posted!! And I only posted a few times. I was so terrified of being ‘found out’!

Here’s some of my story to remind you [and here too]

Anyway, I just got so disillusioned with it all, and especially with God for not delivering me from it after my
desperate life-long desire just to be his holy man, that I just chucked it all in and gave up. Long story short, He
beautifully and gently wooed me back to Himself about 18 months ago. We’re now closer than ever, and praise
Him, my desires are AT LAST more under control.

My reason for writing is that over the last few days I’ve been reading over recent forum posts and
(again) been filled with admiration for the yearnings for purity and pleas for help that I hear from so many of
you. My heart goes out SO much to you all, especially the younger ones. I wish more than I can possibly express
that there had been someone – ANYONE – for me to talk to, let alone give me godly and useful advice, back in
the 70s when all of this volcanoed up in me and started devouring me. It can be such a trite phrase but I mean it
SO much when I say God bless you for your earnest, heart-felt desires to be bls with hearts of Jesus. You are the
true champions of the world!

To those of you who are married, I hope that now I’m writing again, I can be of some help as we share our
journey – that, as I just wrote to my son overseas ‘I can keep using all the crap that I’ve lived thru to help other
guys way earlier to walk out of it had-in-hand with God.’

I especially say this to Cat, whose posting I’ve read and appreciated over the years. My prayers are certainly
with you in these horrible days. I feel your anguish and love you as you try to claw your way out of all this
quicksand.

I’ve been very touched too by posts from Mason (I’m a fellow-Aussie, m8!), blazeofhope and Rainboy. You
precious, PRECIOUS people. I love you already, and hope to get to know you – and all of you on the forum – as
I read more and keep up with doings in coming days.

Oops. my wife is up. I’ll leave this there . . .