Man...I read your story last night and it was really incredible. I just wanted to tell you that I believe God definately has a place for you. He does for all of us. I want to possably email you sometime, after you have been here for a while. I too have a rather bothersome fetish that I have had to deal with most of my life. It is a lot like yours in that it involves pain and boys. However, like you, I would never, ever, do anything to hurt a boy...not ever. That is where it gets somewhat confusing, but I have found a way to deal with it. I simply recognise that it is something that I am certain God would never aprove of, and so I put it in the place in my head where those things go. But my love of boys, I feel, is something God is well able to use for His will; so THAT part of me is His to do with as He will.

Like I said, I would like to discuss this with you further I you like, but I must get to know you for a while before I do email with you. We could discuss it somewhat right here at the forum if you like. At any rate, I am trully glad you found us here.

With Love in Christ,
Chris