Well, I don't mean to bulldog you, Rainboy, but I see the disability argument popping up elsewhere in this forum, too. Perhaps it's best to say something.

Blindness is a good example. Blind people are famous for cultivating their other senses and also their memories for distances and directions in order to navigate very well despite their lack of eyesight.

You are indeed arguably 'blind' when it comes to navigating heterosexual love.

But you may have a God-given, unused sense when it comes to the question of 'could you navigate marital love?' That would be your profound sense of how to love a male in a mutual romantic relationship.

Whether that sense can really practically be pressed into service depends a lot on your age-of-attraction limits.

But if you have a perfectly good set of eyes and biblical misinterpretation has scared you into not opening them, then you can still stumble into God's arms safely... but something may have been lost. An unopened gift from God, a Christmas that never was.