I had the worst nightmare of my life the other night.

Leading up to it was a struggle with my sexual frustration.
I was wanting a release and was considering going to my wife for some sex, but I just couldn't do it... I just couldn't bring myself to want it with her. Instead I went to my room and started crying.

This dream followed.

I was on my bed and my wife was there. She was naked and wanted sex. I couldn't see her face. Only her genetial area and her open legs. But instead of a vagina she had this bloody mass of wet red flesh VERY UGLY. But it got worse cause she thrust her hips and a round piece of meat came out of her all covered in blood which spattered on my face.
I freaked out on two levels. Firstly the vision of it was so hideous to me and secondly I had this fear that this flesh was some vital organ and its loss meant that she was going to die. I thought that I was going to have to be the one to put it back into her and I just couldn't do it.
Suddenly I was a five year old ... I actually saw my child body in the dream.... and I curled up in a ball and began screaming my lungs out. The screaming just went on and on and on and eventually woke me up.

And that's all I have to say about that.
Cat.