Hmm.

I am a little worried that his affection towards me now may only be sexual, but it comes back to what I said before.
There was nothing sexual at all when we both first met, just simple company and love.
I think that for him, his feelings have developed as have mine.

I've totally witnessed this 'recreational sex' with his girlfriend (figuratively of course!).
I was once straight, and once I started a sexual relationship with my first 'girl-friend', it consumed us both.

I told him not to let sex absorb him, but it seems that is has.
He never has anything about her that isn't about sex.

Back to your point:
I understand that sex, or just sexual behavior, should be a special or romantic thing.

Though I haven't had many Girlfriends, and no Boyfriend; I won't have much validity in my words when I say that "I think he could be the one".

We are very close, and have been for a long time.
Before any of this sexually suggestive stuff occured, we were best friends.
We get along so well when his GF doesn't get in the way.

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You said before that sex is a bonding thing.
What I meant when I said I may lose him, was that I would lose him and his friendship.
If he ends up satisfying his urges with YF2, he may leave me.
We do have a strong personal bond, but witnessing how it was crippled once he began having sex with his GF, I'm afraid that if he does begin a sexual relationship with anyone else; the remaining feelings he had for me would be lost.

So thats why I am so confused as to whether I should become sexual with him.
If I don't, I could lose my closest friend; I've never been closer to anyone else in my life.
We could have each other, both providing for each others emotional and sexual feelings adequately.
If I'm not sexual and he leaves me, I'll be alone again and have no-one.
I don't want that.

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It's very interesting about the YF1 & YF2 in bed business.
This scenario took place before he visited my house and slept in my bed.
He didn't tell me about what him and my YF did, however my YF thought that he did and revealed it to me.

My YF said "EWW" when he found out that he had slept in my bed.
And then when YF2 Left, he said "OI, THAT WAS MY BED!"

I believe that he was a bit cranky that I had let another guy sleep in my bed, when he wanted to be the only one.

Something just crossed my mind very quick::

I found that YF2 had bisexual feelings, and maybe wanted to do something with me (wanted me to take my shirt off).
PERHAPS, he exaggerated and explained the new affection that I showed him to my YF.
And now my YF thinks that I may have done something sexual and wants in.

Oh, I think its coming together now.
YF2 has hassled me a few times before, saying that I am gay and talking dirty to me.
I hope that he hasn't given my YF the impression that I want to be sexual with him or YF2.

GAH, this is insane!!

Can't I just hold him like I used to!
I want things to never change, just hold him in my arms forever, like a child.
And then sexuality rears its ugly head, and everyones hormones are raging, enough to destroy friendships!

God Help Me!


Thank you Oliver for your insight, and taking the time to respond .