I can relate to so much of what you are goung through, I did not come out to my wife I got caught at the computer on a boylove web site. I have the same type of feelings and about the sex and masturbation that you do. My wife has been real understanding but believe me we have our problems. I want the marriage to work out so bad and am going to to all that I can do to make it work but I know I can't make her do or accept any thing, If she truly does love me she will accept me and help me through my problems just as I would help her through her problems and be there for her no matter what!

Do not give up on a miracle God can do it, I have had and have personally seen them happen in my own life so I keep praying and believing for one in this area of your life. It is important not to give up on having hope for what you want in your life to work out and it is in Gods will for your marriage to be blessed. So pray for it and expect that the Lord is going to do his will for you in your marriage and this whole area of your life.

I know how you feel and what you are going through, being a boylover, being married and your wife knowing, trying to make the situation work for the both of you and your family, the conflicts and struggles from within your own self. So I will be and have been praying for you, I really believe that the Lord will be there for you and bless you and your marriage!!

God Bless