to try to be perfect, or think something along that line.
And maybe I am throwing it over a little bit

Theory: Perhaps this is more on a personal level?

I have been though a lot of shit in my life.. mostly involving unhealthy sexual relationships with other males... which I kind of admit is pretty intense and...

Well, can I say rare?

I cannot see how masturbation is okay in any way. I can't.
I won't. It's just something we unperfect people do, in hopes of fulfilling the lie that lust gives us and never delivers.

It does teach us to be selfish, I mean not in just one orgasim but over time it can consume us.

Orgasims where meant to be between a man and his wife, together as something they share. And I can't let that go. It is wrong to just call it personal, this problem has spread to my friends, but so what if I think the only thing hindering their spiritual relationship is themselves; not moving.

This can't hurt to try.

This can only make things easier.