Hi Chappy,
Just wanted to do a reply to your post. First of all, welcome to our forum, it is great to have you here. You can get a lot of help and guidance here, and questions answered. I am not the best person for this all though. But many others will reply to your post as soon as they can.

Don't feel damned because you are a BL. It is not a bad thing. Nor should you feel it is a burden. I thought the same things a long time ago. I believe God made me this way for a reason, he made me to be a BL, in my opinion, to help kids and understand them better than a regular adult who is not. I have a job where i work with kids, and i like it very much. The other staff tell me they like how i get involved with the kids etc. I know that is true because most of the other staff do nothing with them.

I now live and think that being a BL is a positive thing, most of us accept that. Who am i to question Gods hand on me? He wanted me this way. I know you are having bad feelings etc. becuse of how you feel towards boys. But like i said, it has worked out good for me.

Just my opinion and how i feel. Please come back here often, post with any questions etc. We are here to help as best we can. Thanks for your post.

Nash