I am online talking to some friends and he pops online. He knows I am on as long as he still has me in his buddy list. He does not say hi or anything as he never does on the rare occasions we are both online at the same time maybe once or so every two weeks. Usually I have no emotional response when I see him online, I've let it go mostly. This time tears well up in my eyes as I stare at his screen name. I loved you, I gave you 5 years of my life. I loved you and you just dropped me like trash. I gave you things sometimes but I was never wealthy, mostly I just gave you time and attention whenever I could.




Fuck you, asshole.




But I love you







Oh the dual conflict of being human, the ability to hold so many emotions at once. We're all probably clinically insane or at least most of us.

I loved/love you and you forgot me.

Fuck you,
love your Spaceman