Hey HG,

I don't mind answering this question at all.

I got married to get healed of my pedo sexuality.

I was praying for healing... I was 19... in a prayer hut at a church camp. I told God, "I'm not leaving till you set me free from this sexuality".... in walks my future wife and announces that she had seen me around and wanted to meet me. I thought, "I'm going to marry this girl... this is my deliverance... the answer to my prayer". I proposed to her the same day.

Over the next couple of years we got to know each other and she eventually said yes to my persistance. Had I known then what I know now... I would not have gotten married.

I didn't get the healing :( I'm as much a BL today as I was back then.
After several years of counseling.... I'm not even bothering trying to give up being attracted to boys anymore. Now I'm just aiming for being able to respond sexually to her.

I love my wife very much, as a friend. But as a husband I feel like a big failure. Our future is not looking hopeful... but nothing is impossible with God.

Blessings
Cat.