Why not try adding to the mix and attend a Quaker meeting or just see if there are any leaflets in their Meeting Hose that might be helpful to you. You'd be very welcome I'am sure.
I was born a Friend but I now have little to do with the church but I do know that it is a very broad minded and simple religion and I worked out my future life as a pedophile in the silence of a meeting at about the age of 15.
A simple summary of Quakerism is on the website: http://www.thakehamquaker.com/single.htm?ipg=2016
Best wishes
William