Not sure if we've crossed wires slightly on this one, Cat.

I'm NOT happy about being sexually attracted to boys. Period. It has its compensations but they all come down to lust of some sort.

I AM happy about loving. I happen to love boys more than others, which is again fine.

Going back to the old "four different words for 'love' in Greek"...

AGAPE - the all giving, unselfish love (that only God can truly do)
PHILIA - the affection between friends (of any type)
STORGE - the love, particularly the protective instinct, between family members (blood is thicker than water)
EROS - the sexual love (which if unchecked, becomes lustful)

I'm happy to strive to AGAPE anyone.
I have a PHILIA for boys which I accept as being part of me. Not a problem.
STORGE is irrelevant, although I have a son for whom I've only ever felt 'proper' love and for whom I've never felt anything untoward... presumably that's evidence of family love.
EROS for boys? Sin. To be rejected and fought against.
(PAUL - I pummel my body into submission...)
(JESUS - whoever looketh lustfully has already....)

Hope that's clearer. I'm not down on myself for loving boys, just for allowing my mind to do its own thing regarding them sometimes.

EMPIRE