I'm a pentecostal, with a Roman Catholic childhood upbringing and a neo-orthodox biblical education. How's that for a mix!

I accept that I'm a pedophile and am mostly very happy to be so (see my reply to EMPIRE).

But as a guy trying to get things happy with his marriage, I have enormous problems with "not being straight".

My wife and I would not be bothered with me being a BL if ONLY I could be attracted to her AS WELL. :S Alas.... not so far :(

My prayer has been for change. In the past I've prayed that God would make me totally straight. That's still in there sometimes :S but I don't see anyone that's really been given an answer to that prayer.

But honestly I don't want to lose the love I feel for the boys in my life.... I just want to deal with the sexual elements.

I also pray that God will help me relate sexually with my wife without having to think about boys and without the sick feelings and stress I get when thinking of being with a female.

Blessings
Cat.