Thanks for the response. Lol at number one. Don't try to be straight anymore. :) (But I like boys with long hair sometimes haha...) I imagine that if my bf stays with me and we age at the same time he'll always be attractive. He has very soft features and a small build and he looks about 2 years younger than he is. I told him even if he grows up to be bigger than I am (Right now he's 5'4" and I'm 5'7") he'll still always be "my little beautiful boy" to me.

And in response to number two... My lowest age of strong feelings, for a long time I thought it was ten... Until S came along who was six. I was actually really disappointed in myself at first but it was just another step towards being more accepting of who I am... I remember the first time that he was missing on a night I was supposed to see him, I was shocked at what a feeling of emptyness came over me! I was like wow I didn't know I would care so much...

For number three, I put that in there because I've strugged with what is called Social Anxiety Disorder all my life, and sometimes I think it has to do with why I like to be in the company of children... I felt SOOO much pressure around my peers and then when I was around children instead, it was so easy to get them to like me and I found out that young boys and I have better chemistry in general than I have with any other type of people.