Sorry,
Also like Chris said, there are many ways to be with and around boys without being sexual with them. I can take it a step farther. I also work in a daycare with boys, which sometimes make it hard for me. Some days my sexual and fantasy desires are stronger than others. Most of the time i keep it in check.

As others posted, you have decisions to make. Keep away from boys all together, which i would not do. I think it would make things worse and fill you with more stress and depression. Be around boys like i do, feel and be in their presence, of course a job like i do where you can legally. I get a lot of satisfaction in my job because i can be around them, get their hugs, talk to them, play with them etc. Most of the time that fills the emptyness i feel, and desire. But like i said, sometimes i still feel those desires being with them, but the positive always outweighs my negatives.

I have thought of changing jobs where i was not around boys/kids, but i think for myself, it would devestate me. I think one or more of those reasons is, because like some here, i am a single man, no girlfriend etc. We are lonely as single people, so just being around boys in any situation is rewarding in itself. We strive for that affection, acceptance, friendship etc. Anything is better than the lonely lives we lead. Not everyone here of course, just those of us who know what i mean. Our families who do not communicate with us because of who we are etc.

Guess i have went on long enough. I hope you understood some of this and the points i was making. Thanks and welcome.

Nash