I too have some similar struggles but I confess not to the intensity of our friend. While I feel that nobody in my circle of friends and family would accept the real me, and I work hard to be a good person, I still struggle with the whole avoidance thing. I am what I am and I can't avoid children because if I did life wouldn't be worth living. I hope that doesn't sound extreme but its the way I feel. Its one thing to say simply avoid children but its anther to live life that way. Its really hard not to do the wrong thing. People just don't understand. This is my first post here and frankly I feel better getting this out. Thank you "confused and scared" for inspirig me to share some of my own feelings.

LG