Hello confused... you will find this forum to be a very supportive environment for you but you will not find a "cure" for loving boys here, or for being sexually attracted to them for that matter. I hate to break it to you but there is no such cure. If you feel that you are at risk for doing something illegal, be real careful, do not drink alcohol that's for sure. But you gotta know how to trust yourself. Lay down what the rules are for you and demand yourself that you follow them--No sexual contact with minors, no child porn, etc... And find someone to hold you accountable, someone who can ask you regularly if you are following your rules or if you are slipping. Than if you need to work on it you and that person can pray together that you will be able to handle your inhibitions responsibly. You are not alone. I don't think you are so out of control as you worry that you are. Removing yourself from risky situations will benefit you in some ways but running from the problem will only get you so far. It's very good that you have sought out help instead of suffering alone. Do not hate yourself because you are a gay BL... it doesn't mean you are a bad person. It can be a rather bad situation to be in, but it was not your choice. The age spectrum is just another factor of your sexual and/or affectional orientation. It could be a combination of genetic and/or environmental factors that are responsible for why you feel these attractions. But it's a part of who you are. It's going to affect you almost every day for the rest of your life, so start accepting it. It's the best thing you can do for yourself. You will live a happier life once you have accepted who you are and learned to have a positive self image. Society may try to regulate a person like you, I have experienced that unfortunately. It is very hard to find people who you can trust and who can accept you for who you are. But I wish you the best of luck and I pray that God watches over you, whether you believe in him or not... And by the way, I'm only a year older than you and not too far away but I don't think it would be safe to say exactly where in a forum anyone could read.