There are things I fantasize about too but yeah they are less sexual. I've had younger friends that actual have sexual feelings towards me but I don't really return them. I sometimes think about close physical intimacy that doesn't involve sex/orgasm, kissing and cuddling for example... but for someone like the 7 year old i'm fond of just a simple hug is perfect enough. Honestly my greatest wish is just to innocently fall asleep beside a boy who I love.

About your sexual attractions, God CAN do anything, but it doesn't seem to me that that is the kinda thing that you outgrow, it's just a part of you for life in most cases, although there are certain treatments for sexual tension and stress. I would compare it to alcoholism, certain factors exist in you that make you prone to binge drink... and even when youre sober it's hard not to think about it. Similar to sexual urges in a way, yes?

I'm thinking of trying to see what kind of hormone therapy is available for me, by the way... There's a male hormone called androgen that I believe I have too much of... (it causes oily skin which leads to acne) I wonder if lowering androgen helps to also control sexual feelings. I am really not sure. But I know it would be nice if I could stop doing the m word...