I know that most of us here have prayed to have this taken from us. Some have accepted that it will always be a part of our lives. Others are fighting themselves and sometimes even God, trying to find a balance.

But I want to ask you all a question. And if you don't feel comfortable posting the answer, then don't post. This is more of a question for your inner heart.

If you truly could give it up, would you?

Think not for a moment on the pain that it has caused. On your relationships or lack thereof, or of society's view. Leave that all behind and think upon your own secret desires in your hearts.

Remember the moments of fantasy and how arousing and pleasurable it was. Of reading an erotic and legal fictional story and masturbating to a rocket-filled orgasm. When you see a boy (or in my case, a girl) out in public and you feel an attraction, sometimes it's sexual, other times it's not. Or the euphoric feeling you get from a smile...

All that.

Would you be willing to give that up?

For me, I would have said yes... except there was always a nagging feeling that I always tried to ignore. The secret voice that whispered regrets about society and that teased me by flaming the very desires I wished to repress.

I couldn't. I wouldn't let it go. That part of me held onto those pleasures. It knew that if they did go away, I wouldn't feel those anymore.

It is a good question to ask yourself.