Thank you. The difficult part is the daily emptiness. I've known the Lord since I was very very young, and I am still walking with Him today. I know that in eternity I will enjoy full release from my sinful nature. But until then I am in need of "Jesus in the flesh". I know that many of my brothers will willingly love me at arms length, but I so crave to be healthily loved in their arms. I have not yet found anyone to do so. The strange part is that the worst failures of my past also were the highest joys. If I could only find that wonderful joy without the sin. If I could only find that intense and beautiful pleasure without the guiltiness.