Had a little chat with my wife the other day about sex options.

I have tried going without sex for a few months.... including trying to go without wanking.

Result... the very sexy, distressing dreams I've mentioned in previous posts. Plus new temptations to approach boys on the street... which I don't think I would ever act upon but... I've never been tempted to do that before. EG: I saw this very cute young teen boy at the shop the other day and I was thinking of asking him "how far would you go for $50?" At the moment I feel pretty sure that these kind of thoughts wouldn't become more than thoughts... but they frighten me... and I wonder where they would lead in the long term.

Now I can't control my dreams people tell me... but I actually CAN to some extent. If I have regular orgasms then I don't get the dreams.

So I try wanking without fantasy.... don't seem to be able to do it. :S
But at least my wank fantasy is not about real boys.

So I say to my wife... since I'm going to be having boy sex in my head anyway... either in these dreams or in wank fantasy... then why not have sex together and if boys come into my head I/we just put up with it.

Well... she had some mixed reactions. But the final result was... as long as I try and not go out of my way to fantasise and as long as I try and be with her then she'd give it a try.

Unfortunately I know the reality. Without thinking about boys there is no sexual response from me.... what is a Cat to do? I don't think I can have honest sex with my wife. To tell the truth there is still a big part of me that feels sick at the thought of having sex with her without distracting myself with boy fantasy.

Still Confounded
Cat.