Hi Globulus,

I don't want you to think I am picking on you or getting on your case, or anything like that; but as I read your post I thought of a few things I wanted to say to you right away. Please remember that I say these things because I am honostly concerned about you and your welfare. Why? It's what I do...sometimes....probably not enough...

I couldn't help but notice that you had probably been drinking a lot when you wrote this post. And by what you said it sounds like your roommates had been drinking a lot as well. This leads me to think that you might be drinking a whole lot; maybe even using alcohol to try to deal with your problems. If that is so, then please don't feel alone. I did that for a long time in my life. But what I found in the end was that the drinking never helped me at all, it actually hurt me in more ways than I could know. I found this out when I finally decided to quit drinking...or was forced to quit drinking. When I finally got sober I was able to see what was really going on in my life and in my heart and mind. It took some time, but I was able to see it and do some things about my problems, rather than trying to medicate myself with alcohol.

Please don't get me wrong, I'm not saying that this is what you are doing...I don't know that for a fact. I'm not saying that you are an alcoholic, either. If you really are, than only you can determine that for yourself. But IF you are, IF that is true, then please know that you might want to consider quitting. And if you do, then please know that there is ample help out there for you to be able to do so. Including someone in here who really cares. I will do whatever I can to help you if it is what you want, believe me.

I may be entirely wrong in what I have just written, and if I am I appologise big time. But I want you to know that I am praying for you and that I will help you if you want it.

With Love in Christ Jesus,
Chris