Hi Guys

Thanks for all your advice, I need it. Although I may be at odds with a few of you, I think that I will be able to eventually be able to get over my attraction to boys eventually using the help of God. I may be a bit different from the rest of you cause I think my attraction is just addiction. I'm going to tell you a bit about myself cause I feel like I need some prayer, even though it may give away who I am, but I dont care cause I know that the Lord will always be with me.

Sorry if this board is a bit of a ramble but i've had a few drinks 2nite cause its wat I do. I am not from a christain background and have never been to church, edited I am still young, not even considered an adult in my country n already my life is a mess, i think, or it is good. Im confused.

I am addicted to boys which is bad enough, I don't know if that is something to be ashamed of or not. edited

At the moment I feel a bit like Job (I think, i still need to do a bit of Bible reasearch)with everything going wrong wrong in my life, but yet there seems to be so much good going on in my life to. I think I have a rare symptom which it makes me diffficult to feel emotions. I have lost people I love love but I feel no sorry and dont feel much joy when good things happen. I think I have cases of extreme good luck and bad luck, maybe its just the devil toying with me. Just a few hours ago for example my flat mate stabbed one of my other flatmates in the kidney out of the blue (one of my flatmates has a.d.h.d and can't control his emotions that well, but still... Please pray for my both my flatmates in their hour of need, n help them through this delimer. Should I stick with the same guys in flatting edited,even though some of the things we do may be considered sinfull? but still good times .. most of the time. I could go on about myself for a bit longer but it's probably drawn on long enough n not making much sense so i'l stop there, but everything i've said is true. I.e. One of my flatmates is currently in jail and the other n hospital.
I would like some advice and prayer on my life, n prayer for my flatmates.
How do I get back to christainity the way I am?


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