If only I could express myself as clearly as you have done as I share all the sensitivities that you have expressed accept that I have never had a close adult friend.
I have faked my way through life from the age of 12 though I still do not dare admit that I am a pedophile!
But the loving friendship of young boys has been so satisfying and energising. And I am now in the fortunate position of being surrounded by past yfs who are now middle aged men.
My present yf (see my previous post), is progressing well and cares for me as much as I care for him. He is almost certainly heterosexual thank goodness!
What a joy it is to share this brotherhood with other people with similar feelings.
Many thanks to the people who have set up this forum. I am sure that it has helped reduced the feeling of guilt of: being what we are.