Hey, bud. I hope you're feeling better. Just so you know, I like what I've read from Chris, Cat, BigCalv and William so far. They are all encouraging you to be ok with yourself and your feelings - and to keep God in mind, knowing that He's in on all this with you.

Funny thing, this confusion over what we ought to feel guilty about. We all get it sometimes. We get a lot of mixed messages from the broader Christian doctrines on "right and wrong." In my opinion, the best interpretation of God's word is to look for the messages of love and respect. If your interpretations on how to live your life and make choices are all based on finding the closest alignment to love and respect, then I think you've got then Spirit of what the authors of the Bible are trying to get across. Think this way, and I think you'll feel better.