Welcome to the board EJ!

I remember being a frosh and struggling to understand, all alone, what my feelings meant. It was the only confusing part for me. And I felt so dirty for having these thoughts. (I'm a junior in college, 25y/o, so it wasn't *that* long ago). In my case it took me until I had a meltdown in college to truly accept that I was homosexual, a BL, and that I really didn't like women. I can see myself being married to a pretty woman, with 2.5 kids and a white picket fence, but I can't see myself going through with the act that made those kids. For me, all my feelings for women were socially conditioned desires; when I looked inside, deep inside, it wasn't right.

You might be gay, you might be bi, you might be straight with a crush on your male teacher. None of these are abnormal. Sexual orientation is not like a switch, either one or the other. It's like a continuum: there are degrees, a sliding scale if you will between "100% straight" and "100% gay". But try not to tear yourself apart over it. Keep searching your soul for the answers, and God will lead you to the path He wants you to follow, piece by little piece.

I suggest that you take a look at www.InclusiveOrthodoxy.org as you consider what sexual orientation means for a Christian.

As far as younger guys posting here, we've had a few. "Youth" has been a regular teen (he just graduated HS) poster here for a while, though he recently left the board, having moved on with his life. He was a lot of fun for us to have here and helping him through his difficult times and his good times. We Bl's kinda live for that kind of stuff ;-)

In Christ,
~CSL