Hey Chris!
Wow, thats awesome and sad all at the same time. I (and most of us here, I assume) know exactly what you mean when you say that its the little things that separate us from boys that can really break ones heart! Its those long days that slowly fade into nights that one feels alone and unloved and that nothing really matters any more, nothing makes sense and purpose is forgotten. I've had a lot of those nights, so I just want you to know that I will never say "cry me a river, Chris", because I've been there.

But you know what might be a little comforting. He's been there too. The big He. Not only did Jesus feel abandoned by pretty much the whole world - forsaken, stripped of everything, without compassion or love - but He actually was. For a little while there, almost everyone He knew on earth hated him. Even his most loved of friends left him when He needed them most.

Take comfort in that because of all people, Jesus will never ever say "cry me a river, Chris" because he knows exactly what you are going through - because he went through even more Himself!

Just know that there is always hope. Just like your dream showed you, you do have a future! What it is, well ... you'll find that out in the future :P But there are boys out there that love you, I love you, and most of all Jesus loves you!

Pleasant dreams, friend!

Graces of God,
Deliverance