Welcome to CBF. Yes, we all face the struggles you mention. But I truly believe that the more we resist the temptation to be sexual with boys, the easier it gets. We may still have the attraction, but we don't have to be enslaved by it. It's when we start "playing" with the idea of boysex that it gets harder. The "I wonder if he would really enjoy it," or the "maybe he really wants it" kind of thoughts that make things terribly difficult. If we maintain the stance in our own minds that sex with a boy is just not an option under any circumstances, we can feel more free to interact with boys without fearing that there is a danger of "slipping."

Dakota