Well you are the first person I've seen here who has SOME understanding of what they are doing so I'm not gonna completely torture you with words. I agree with the important people as I am an important person myself. Grow up! It's as simple as that. Kids don't enjoy older men. At least not any mentally stable ones. Just start acting your age and hopefully in time your infatuation with kids will go away. You remind me kinda of the guy in Death in Venice so I ain't gonna be too mean coz I kinda pity you. But you don't wanna end up like him do you?