Hey Empire,

wow that's quite a testimony.
I've been puzzling out my sexuality for the last few years and I've concluded that there's a difference between finding someone good looking and finding them sexually attractive.

I find my wife good looking. I find lots of people good looking. But when it comes to sex... well the only thing I find attractive is boys.

I am really finding the sex thing tough. I never new how much I was depending on fantasy till I tried to stop.

Its a real dilemma.
I think I can't have sex without fantasy... and actually get to orgasm I mean. I just don't know what that means for my marriage :S

Blessings
Cat.