Oh man I'm so bloody frustrated!!!!!

My internal sex drive chemicals are going crazy (meh... that's no big deal happens to most men regullarly).

But when I try and point my pecker in the direction of my wife.... [insert drooping sound effect].

AHHHHHHHHHH!

Then I have this sexy boy dream during the night wake up hot as anything and I think... initiate something with the woman... but I know that if I do then all I'll be able to think about is the dream... so I don't initiate anything.

Then I see this georgous boy in the street. I don't think sexy about him, but he's just so adorable my jaw drops on the floor. Then he speaks to his mum and his little boy voice makes my heart melt.

I don't even have one ounce of this kind of reaction to my wife. :(

I want to run from my marriage.

Sex terrifies me.

I am trying to do what I believe is God's will and make it work. Sheesh these days it seems my wife is almost more willing than I am!

I just don't know HOW to do it.

God, I'm waiting for the Red Sea to open up here.... otherwise the Egyptians are gonna get me.

Frustrated, but trying to be faithful,
Cat.