I guess I am in a state of confusion right now.
Not a 'life threatening' one though.
I was always told that I would get what i need.
But me and my best friend have been distant for 2 weeks, and we finally started talking again. He has been so busy working and what not that I haven't got any time with him. Well I called him one day to have his mom answer and tell me he has been very disrespectful towards her and what not, and he would be in trouble for a little while. (This was before 2 weeks) I saw him at church and we planned to hang out, though i had mu doubts, it turned out he wasn't in trouble and in fact; had earned his trust back (driving etc.) and even more. Well we hung out all was great blah blah blah..
So then I call him yesterday and he is like, "*******, I am in deep shit" And I was like "What???"
He got a speeding ticket.
(Crowd goes, aww.....)
In his family, that is bad.
His mom is gone with the rest of him family, and he is so torn up inside, about loosing trust, and i am upset because I am afraid that our days of socialization have come to an end.

I was always told that I would get what i need.
I need him, i need my best friend.
Someone I care so much for, someone to love, and be loved from... someone to cherish memories with, someone to laugh way too hard about farting with.
Its just, i don't know if I should get a job, because then any time that we may have, i might be working.
But the house will be gone soon, and I need to provide for myself.
I need the money.
I need to start to be responsible, and prove myself. I don't know, I have met an awesome girl (who is a friend first a foremost, but maybe more)
Maybe I am supposed to take this chance. I don't know. I'm foofed.