I've gotta ask you, when was the last time you masterbated with an absolutely blank mind. While thinking of absolutely nothing. I really doubt it's possable to do that at all. And if it's not possable to do, then masterbation is either a sin for us or it is a nessisary "evil" that we need to keep ourselves in check. OR, perhaps it is niether of those things.

I have heard a definition of lust that I like and it makes a lot of sense to me. It is, "To lust after something is to desire it so much that you feel you cannot actually live without it". I don't do this with any boy, or with boys in general. I don't desire them THAT much, not even when I am very sexually attracted to one. I don't know, it helps me to put things into perspective a little better.

Chris