Wow Youth,

Strong feelings.

I think you need to give yourself some time to process this stuff. I feel like you keep trying to categorise yourself and then struggle to fit yourself into your own molds.

You have feelings... very powerful feelings. You have also seen that you can exercise self control and be attracted to girls.

Given a bit more time to explore these feelings I hope you can find where you want to be with all this bro. As a Christian it makes things challenging if you find yourself going in the same gender direction... but you know this already.

Patience bro... that's my advice.... give yourself time to grow up.

Blessings
Cat.