The weird thing about what happened is that there was no self control involved at all. There was no logical reason at all. The mere action of hitting an erase button couldn't instantaneously take away my horniness and lust, which is why I'm sure it had to come from God. What I was hoping would happen was that by erasing the pics, I would have one less trigger (ok, over 300 less triggers) to focus my mind where I didn't want it to go. Well, even that isn't completely true. Part of me did want to focus my mind there, too much of a part of me. Which is why I felt I had to get rid of them. And I also was fairly certain that God wanted me to get rid of them too. But my point is that it should have been a gradual redirecting of my thoughts. What happened was an instant cleansing.

I've seen God work in my life numerous times, but rarely so dramatically. It's left me wondering why now? What is different from all the other times I've prayed for this to happen? Why did He do this at all, since I'm not exactly the best Christian on the planet? I guess this has just left me a bit unnerved. Thankful, but unnerved.

Dakota