Chris,

I've been quite perplexed to see you having this struggle. I can only hope you are making a decision you will be happy with.

As you say, its in God's hands.

Remember our God is a restorer of relationships and a rebuilder of what is torn down. That of course don't neccessarily mean that He'll rebuild your blood family... it may mean that He'll build you a new family .... in fellowship and friends.

Either way, you have my prayers bro.

I hope you can find a way to have some contact with your family AND protect yourself from getting used. Surely that would be a good option.

Love you Bro
Cat.