Hey Guys,

Here’s the latest from my part of the world.

My wife and I have been talking about my lack of attraction to her. The result… she asked me to leave and I did.

I wasn’t gone 6 hours and she was calling me to come home.
She made a decision to try and accept me as I am.

She has asked that I try and be faithful to our marriage in terms of what I look at and fantasise about. I am certainly willing to try and do this.

My biggest problem is that I don’t think I can reach orgasm without boy fantasy. Without it our sex life is going to be pretty… well… flat. I just don’t know what to do about that.

We have different ideas on what is ok to accept and what is sinful. That is going to cause us some issues too I suspect.

But she has said to me that she understands that I may struggle with my sexuality for the rest of my life… but as long as I try and overcome temptation and keep my sex life confined to our marriage that she will accept it.

I even told her I want to have boys in my life as friends and play mates and she seemed to accept that too.

My wife and I are very much in love… but my love for her is not sexual at all.

I still don’t feel equipped sexually for marriage… but I guess I want to try.

It’s not going to be easy… please keep us in your prayers

Blessings
Cat.