I'm sorry for everything that happened to you.

You have to try and understand that I, also, have given my life to Christ. He is my all, my everything. I would be completely lost without Him. I thank God everyday for catching me when he did.

And I have repented, and I have asked. I, for one, believe I can be changed. But what I am saying is that God hasn't changed me yet. And who am I to keep asking all the time for him to heal me? I've asked a million times as it is. But like Paul, I feel my answer from God is that he is enough for me. I am not shutting God out. If it is God's will to heal me, then I am not standing in the way. I am always willing to change.

Maybe you are right though, maybe I haven't leaned COMPLETELY on God, maybe I haven't put all my trust in him that he will heal me. Actually, I question myself on that a lot.

I just don't think it is right for you to assume that, just because you got healed, it means everyone can. And I know that sounds completely wrong, but who are we to say God will or will not do something?

So I will not say whether God will or will not heal me. His will be done.

Also, it is possible you were just sexualy confused from the abuse. And when you gave it all the God, he 'un-confused' you. (I don't know much about all that stuff though, other members here do though. So maybe they can extend on what I said.)

But I was never abused. I've never even had a sexual experience. I have a great christian that loves me. I have great friends, and great church. And I never made a choice to be ATTRACTED to boys. The earliest sign of my attraction that I can remember was when I was 4. So I don't know what made me this way. And that is what makes me believe that it is possible that I will have to live with it. And I can serve the Lord.