Me, being human I have taken quite a few turns also in my life.
I am in no way judging you.

The "old me" was bisexual, a cocaine addict, a prostitute, and a sex addict.
I am sure there is more, but I have forgotten.

I was completely addicted to cocaine, smoking it and sniffing it.
It was to the point of no return, but one day I said "I have had enough" and God healed me.
4 days later, the cravings were completely gone, the thoughts, the taste.
And I became completely dependant on God at that point. He was the only person I thought of. When weakness came, He held me through it.

I was a bisexual at least, maybe gay to a point.
I acted on my desires, but the next day I felt totally ashamed and cried and repented out of shame.
I could not imagine being without God, because during that time of sex and lust I was not abiding with God.
God took away my desire for the same sex. I no longer had it.
But see I had to ask first, I had to repent and the Lord seen into my heart.

I was a prostitute one day as a teenager. Why? I was homeless, without love and shelter and it was the only way to make money.
I am certain I committed adultery.
The same day the Lord granted me a way out, and I was saved and cared for.

Because I was abused sexually even when I was a baby.. I started masturbating at a early age.
I masturbated relentlessly for years. I had sex just for sex, but I never felt anything from sex with a man.
I never masturbated thinking about children, but to being abused and beaten.
I could only have an orgasm if I was being used for sex, humiliated or treated bad.

I can only say that God has taken this from me with only my help and my refusal to label myself as anything or give into the ideal or thought or feelings.

Psalms 91. My strength.

This is why I say it is a choice. Because you choose it. Just like I choose to be how I am and think what I think.


In all those ways I described myself to you, what in that makes me better than you?
None of it.
Its just that I learned and leaned totally on God to be completely healed and restored.

Anyone can do this same thing!