Now the question is... am I decieved?

No she is

Can I enjoy her for her own sake?

In my experience you cannot enjoy her sexually for her own sake with 0% sexual attraction to her

Can I have sex with her without thinking about kids?

Probably not

Am I resisting or unrepentant or unwilling or in any other way hindering the process?

no

Its just skin on a body frame and shapes of sex organs????

Attraction is much more than that.

How can it be so difficult to be attracted to them????

Difficult? You make this sound like something that if you keep trying you can get it right when you know that is not the case. It is only difficult because you are trying to do something against your nature.