I believe this the same as you, Rick.

I would just like to add that, like you said, it is difficult. But I don't think the word difficult gives it justice sometimes.

When I think about all this, I start asking myself questions like: Why would God not heal me from this if it is such a hindrance between us? Am I supposed to completely ignore every boy?

And then I always ask myself why it has to be so hard. Or, rather, I ask God why it has to be so hard. But I know His Word says the narrow path is long and hard.

Spending time with God always helps me. I think it is necessary to have a quiet time at least once a day. And I have found that praying for God to heal me doesn't work (at least it hasn't yet). So, instead, I pray for strength to fight the enemy, a hedge of protection from the enemy, I pray the verse that says I am a conquerer in Christ. I pray those things so that I can have strength the defeat the enemy when I am tempted to think about or look at boys inappropriately. And it works. But I am human, so I am not perfect.