One of the things I find with this "alternative" sexuality of mine is that I can sexualise almost any relationship I'm in regardless of attraction.

I find that whenever I spend any length of time with any person I start thinking about them in terms of what it would be like to sex them up. When someone is not attactive to me this can be quite an unsettling thought... yet I think it.

I'm sure that any physical contact... eg: wrestling.... would almost certainly make these feelings more dominant. In your case bro you have physical contact and strong feelings of affection for your friend... its no surprise to me that it gets sexualised at some level.

I don't worry too much about this side of things. I find it confusing. It makes me wonder where the boundaries of my sexuality lie... but overall I just accept that, for me at least, this is part of the journey.

I have discovered through my marriage though, that having sex when there is no attraction becomes very difficult to sustain in the long term.

Blessings
Cat.