Hello,
It appears you have a lot more than what you thought. Friends, family and church. Those seem to be the greatest things of all. You have those, but did not realize it. Some of us, including myself, have always wished to have those three. Not one or two, but all three. I am currently not in Church, but that is my own fault, something i can change, yes. friends, i have none here where i live at present time. In the physical sense. Online i have several though, including a couple from this forum. Family, i have had a hard time with that subject. Most of my family has put me down, disgraced me, made me feel unworthy, led me to low self esteem etc. That was one of the reasons i moved away from them all, including the relatives. Backstabbing as they are. i only live 4,000 miles away from them ha ha. I moved away from them 5 months ago, left my mailing address and phone number with my mom, and yet, none have ever contacted me. Not even at Christmas.

About masturbation. i think it is ok to do it because it relieves stress. A lot of built of stress. Our bodies were made to do it. Those of us who live alone, and are alone, that is all we can do alone. Now, actually what you think about when doing it, that differs from everybody i am sure. Is it a sin to think about boys while doing it? I dont know. Most people,when doing it, i am sure fantasize about what makes them feel sexual. Myself, i do think of boys, because thats what makes me feel sexual. Some people say it is ok to fantasize as long as it stays there and not acted upon. Some say it is a sin to do that. So everybody has their own opinion. What is right, what is wrong?

Just my opinion, thanks for reading. Thanks for your post. Good luck. God Bless.
Nash