I took a step back and looked upon myself.
The life i complain about, how selfish can i be?
I have it well. And i am too; too human to see the good things when they come. As tears come to me with flowing happiness, I stand in wonder.

Can i really complain?
I have friends i couldn't live without, right here with me, they aren't leaving me, and i love them. I have a family i keep pushing aside; but they love me. I have a wonderful girlfriend, an awesome church with many strong Christians, including my best friends, I have Jesus.

I have you guys. Why am i complaining? I feel so stupid. Is the life MY KING died for really that worthless. No. I love it; i am so thankful for it.

My friend is getting his drivers license that i was SO jealous about, but because i thought i was going to loose him to life, that i wouldn't see him; but that doesn't hinder anything, yet makes things between us stronger. He isn't leaving me like some old friends, he is here to stay.

And God is here. I feel it, i feel spiritually bowed right now, unable to realize, that i am so short of his glory.

I can't forgive my brother for something trivial but my God can die for me, and separate what i've done and make it into nothing, just because he loves me.

I am so thankful, you wouldn't believe my friends story, about he ended up meeting me, it was so obviously God, it is crazy.

I can't express the feeling, so familiar, yet, like the waves.

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Had to leave the computer and go pray for a moment.
But here is an interesting topic (if you can't guess, i am trying to get a strand of posts started)

I have a very real question; and after i hear your replies to the question, i will tell you guys what i think.

Why is it males continue to make love to their hand? What emotion, instinct; psycological mishap; whatever, i want to hear why you think we masturbate. And not just start, i want the full shebang.

And secondly; besides it being the sin of lust; do you think it is dangerous?

Thanks
~Youth~