I think you are right about me Dakota... I do get overly obsessed about the small stuff.

I have a perfectionist streak in me that wants everything to be right.

I think this is a tough issue still... but there ARE things more important to worry about.

It IS better in my oppinion, at this point in time to be wanking occasionally and not obsessing over boys than to be fighting a self-denial battle I have no chance of winning and becoming totally focused on boys.

Thanks for your post... and...hehe... your frustration :P

Blessings
Cat.