"I kinda wish the guy who did it was alive (he supposedly killed himself). Just so we could know why he did it, I mean, was his life really that bad? And so someone would reach out to him and tell him about Jesus."

I have been told about Jesus, but I remain a non-believer and my life continues to be much the same. I guess I don't understand what you mean, or why a lecture on Christianity is likely to change a person's quality of life in any dramatic way.