Let me ask you something. If your head itched (or arm, or neck, or whatever) would you feel guilty about scratching it? Of course not. So for petes sake, will you stop feeling obsessively guilty about wanking, which is nothing more than scratching an itch!!!!!!!! IT'S A PENIS, NOT THE 4TH LEVEL OF HELL!!!! God put it there, and He also put the natural desires for release in you. Do you really think God gives a flying flip if you play with it sometimes? Unless it becomes an obsession, I don't see a problem. (An obsession about anything is bad, even church) And as far as fantasies go, it's hard to do one without the other.

Personally, I dealt with the guilt this way. I prayed and prayed about it, and asked that if it was displeasing to God, that He take away the horniness that keeps building over time (as you have discovered). Even though I admit that I do quite enjoy masturbation, I was quite willing to give it up along with the pleasure. And even though I wasn't thrilled about losing my sex drive, since I was single, I reasoned I didn't really need it. But God didn't miraculously remove my sex drive, so I still wank. If I didn't wank, I would be thinking impure thoughts a heck of a lot more than the occasional fantasy.

I leave open the possibilty that I may be choosing the lesser of two evils. So when I get every single facet of my life in tune with what God wants it to be, maybe I'll take another look at my wanking habits and rethink if I should do anything about it. But till I'm perfect in every other respect, I'm not going to sweat the small stuff.

Dakota