Well, its just hear to say that:
I just had a serious talk with my girlfriend, i don't want to give up.

Hear we go; being brutally honest with myself (you can tell i have a hard time doing this)

I am so afraid of loosing my friends to life, and their responsibilities.
It has happened before, but for some reason, i need some major space with me and my friends alone.

I just need some time to make sure that i am going to be alright, and mabey realize that my friends aren't going anywhere.

Please pray for me and this situation, i am really heartbroken.