This must be the time of the year when I get all my boy moments all at once. Months and months go by and nothing, then suddenly I’m interacting with boys at least once a week. It’s amazing. This last weekend was quite amazing, and I think I had a few insights as well.

Last Sunday at church I was playing guitar with the worship team. After the service, while I was packing up my equipment, I got a special treat. There is a young 11 year old boy whom I have admired for years. He is so beautiful, with floppy blond hair, bright blue eyes, and the kind of face that I can’t describe but is so innocent and sweet that it almost makes me want to flip. Well, before I put my guitar in its case, he walks over and starts talking to me. This boy never talks, and now I know why…he is somewhat tall for his age but he has the high-pitched voice that sounds like a young girl’s voice. (WOW!!!) So I think he is very self conscious about his voice, but coupled with the way he looks it’s just perfect to me. And he wanted to talk all about playing guitar. He likes how I play and wanted to see my guitar and ask me about playing and such. He has taken some lessons but I think he might want me to show him some things that I do. I know I went a little overboard and offered to teach him guitar.

What is it about being a boylover, anyway? A beautiful boy talks to us and we just fall head over heals about it. I can’t stop thinking about him and that beautiful voice of his. It’s not a sexual thing but it certainly is a sensual thing. Yes I love him, indeed I do. Why does this happen to us? I doubt I can ever do anything about how I feel as far as having him as a YF, but I still can’t get him out of my head. That beautiful boy with the beautiful voice…it’s frustrating. And he was so polite, he thanked me and smiled a sweet smile and walked back to his dad. Oh Lord I’ve got it bad.

Anyway, that wasn’t the only boy moment I had this weekend. Saturday I went with a friend to a car show. I love car shows and there are always lots of “ahem” other things to see besides cars. To make a long story not so long, while I was at the show I saw this particularly cute boy standing in a crowd of people, watching a video. So I decided to watch the video too. After a while, the people whom I thought were with the boy walked off and it was just the two of us watching the movie. Then it suddenly occurred to me that this boy was all alone in this big car show with lots of people walking and milling around. It also occurred to me that if someone were looking for a boy to possibly kidnap and have their way with him, this would be the perfect set up. So I decided to make myself useful. I stood there and watched over him and was determined to make sure he would be ok until his dad or someone he knew came to find him. It wasn’t long before his father showed up and got him. I didn’t say anything to either the boy or the man who came to get him, but I knew from the way they spoke that the man was his dad.

This is my insight from all of this:

Ok, we are just big time infatuated with young boys…we can’t help that. A beautiful boy turns our heads at a car show, or talks to us at church and we fall madly in love with him and we can’t get him out of our heads. That’s just something that goes along with the territory of being a Boylover. Why ask why, it is what it is and that’s it. But we can find virtue in this “madness”. As in the case of the boy at the car show, we can do something good and watch over the boy and make sure he doesn’t become a victim of a horrible crime. It’s a way to find some purpose in what we are. And what about the boy at church? What’s my purpose there? Well, who knows, maybe I could teach him some guitar. You never know, he could be another Jeff Beck or something and my teaching him could be the thing that helps him to bring it out. You never know. You don’t know how many great musicians, artists, writers, actors, lawyers, business men, and men of other various professions were deeply influenced by BLs while they were boys. We may never know, but it wouldn’t surprise me if there have been (and will be) many. And who knows, maybe those boys whom we watch over and protect from would-be predators will grow up to be great men. A thing that might not happen if some molester grabs him and rapes him. I would say we have a very important purpose in this world, regardless of what others might think of us. We can do it quietly and even anonymously, but be a terrific influence on the future men of this world.

Those are my thoughts over this past, mind-blowing weekend. I hope these weekends are just the beginning of a very long trend.

With Love in Christ,
Chris