Howdy ho neighbor batty, heh

I must smile. For who cannot smile when faced with a brother who believes? You remind me not to smile at a crocodile, and I remind you that we must rejoice always in his name *smiles more*

What I had said in my earlier post wasn't aimed specifically at this thread. Just sort of as a general thought. It would be kinda freaky if everyone started being a vampire on the board. heh. Trust me, I have seen stranger things happen (not here). One person comes on with a unique spin on something and pretty soon... poof. Suddenly the uniqueness becomes a norm. lol I admit I thought of attempting to find a monster archetype for my own!

Forgive me. I tend to write as I think. Sometimes my posts are a bit jumbled because of it.

Ah yes, death can be a bitch. Though for real death I have longed for in earnest as I can take my allotted place in heaven. It is the death of unbelief that I fear. Paul tells us we should die daily in Christ, putting to death the Old Man that lives within us all, that being our sinful nature. ...its difficult sometimes. Especially when the sin is so.... fun. But Christ keeps pulling me back from the brink of destruction that I seem so eager to fling myself over. I still search. and I still fall. My life is in ruins in so many places... My faith has been tested, crushed, widdled, drenched and beat upon. I do not have a strong faith. It is often times incredibly weak and it allows me to do some stupid things in my life. I know it isn't anything to my credit but it is through God's grace alone that my faith wasn't completely snuffed out. As someone dear to me recently pointed out Jesus said "A broken reed I will not break. A smoking candle I will not snuff out." So I guess it was more akin to a death-trance that I am back from lol. But alas, I return. Lost, alone and frightened. A prodigal son many times over. One that cannot seem to learn his lesson.

So no... I don't have anything to fear from crocodiles or vampires or being labeled a monster. I am too busy being afraid of myself for those things to matter much to me. ;)

You are indeed an interesting person and I look forward to talking with you more and getting to know you.